Clearing It Up

Has anyone seen a moral compass laying around?

Kinda hard to know where North is when your north is not the same as your neighbor’s, isn’t it?   Welcome to the world we live in.  One reason I stopped blogging a while back was due to the business of life. Another was my frustration with life itself.  I didn’t want to get too cynical or opinionated.  But I’m sorry. This world needs a compass and I’m not going to stand by anymore while everyone wanders aimlessly seeking their own North…. their own solutions, their own god, their own ethics.  

Here are the top news stories in the Greenville area today (with a brief synopsis): 

NEW INFO: Thieves Target Murder Victim’s House Just Days After Her Death

POLICE: Woman Fakes Handicap To Steal Elderly Woman’s Credit Card

FIRST ON WITN: Teen Rape Suspect Surrenders In Greenville

Three Charged After Drugs Found At ECU Fraternity House

DEPUTIES: Woman Posed As School Employee To Buy Computers

Two Former ECU Employees Charged With Embezzlement

For real… It’s bad enough there was a murder-suicide.  Who says it’s ok to go into the victim’s home (the NEXT DAY) and essentially loot her home?  How does someone see it as ok to 1.pretend to have a disability and use the accessible wheelchair or 2. ask an old lady to get you something off a shelf and then steal her credit card out of her purse?  Why, why, why am I continuously bombarded with stories of men raping CHILDREN?  Eight, ten, fifteen… all children!  Who are the men?  Substitute teachers, bus drivers, coaches, family friends, very few strangers.  People are looking for something to fill a void in their lives so badly they are using people, drugs, anything they can get their hands on.  The woman who is accused of fraudulently buying computers with state money (stealing funds from our children’s schools) is 57 yrs old. In her photo, she is SMILING.   Then we have the two ECU pharmacy employees who stole FROM A LOW INCOME MEDICAL CLINIC!   They stole money from people trying to help the unemployed, poor or uninsured.  One of these people stole $62,000!  

Welcome to America. 

America. Where everyone with a home has a television and most likely a cell phone, even if they have never worked for a dime. Worried about what fast food meal we’ll eat for our next meal. We donate money to protect and support animals while children in this country and others go hungry and are homeless, sometimes TRADED like commodities for drugs or sex. We have debates over what is humane yet many people don’t know where the basis of their personal philosophies originates.  We are more so stepping on someone else’s toes that we end up remaining so tolerant we let things slip by that we know are not right… 

I am not a prophet. I can not tell you when the day or hour of Christ’s return will be and suggest we synchronize our watches. Instead, I have the following proposition(s):

1. If you are unsure which side of this debate you sit on, please contemplate your life and attempt to find your compass. You may need to ask a friend of family member, “What drives me?” Think about where you go for answers to life’s questions, for drawing the line between what is right and what is wrong.  

2. If you do not have a True North and are keen enough to realize it, EMAIL ME or call me. I will GLADLY talk to you about my own personal North, Jesus Christ. (Note I didn’t say “God” but the path to God that I believe without doubt is the way, the truth and the life).  If you don’t know me personally or can’t find me, then talk to a Christian that you know or go by a local church and talk to a pastor.  You can also pick up a Bible and ask God to show you what you need to know (pray). 

3. If you claim to be a Follower of Christ (a Christian), be righteous. I hope to have a future post about just that thing in the next couple of days, so keep your eyes peeled.  In addition to being righteous, go to your pastor, Sunday school teacher, someone and ask for a Bible study about “apologetics” and/or foundations. Find out why you believe what you believe, the basis of your faith, so you can help others find North. 

Sorry for my soapbox, but it’s getting ridiculous. 


“When my world is shaking…

… I’ll never leave your hands.”  I love that JJ Heller song. If you don’t know what in the world I’m talking about, check her out on you tube.  She definitely knows how to put things into perspective with her lyrics.  Lord knows, we need some perspective right about now.

To catch everyone up, since November we’ve had quite the mess on our hands around here. Robbie has still been looking for work, his dad has been diagnosed with a terminal cancer, my grandfather’s health has seriously declined, and I lost my job. Oh yeah, and we had baby girl #2 (Miss Abby) in November!

This week, Robbie started a new full time job within 20 mins of the house.  I found out today I have a new job in academics of all places!  I will be teaching in the PA program at ECU as soon as they can get my contract drawn up.  I can’t wait, but at the same time I’m anxious about all I will have to learn.  Nonetheless, I know I’ll make it.  If God is for me, who can be against me? If God is with me, I will stand.

If I have learned anything in this time, it is about the faithfulness of God. Somewhere in all this, I have been clinging to the concept of “light”.. “God is light and in him is no darkness” more specifically…. These verses in John inspired me to dig a bit deeper. Within a day, I found this passage written by David in 2 Samuel 22: 1-37, 47. I have highlighted the verses that spoke out the most to me…

1 David sang to the LORD the words of this song when the LORD delivered him from the hand of all his enemies and from the hand of Saul. 2 He said:

“The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
3 my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge,
my shield[a] and the horn[b] of my salvation.
He is my stronghold, my refuge and my savior
from violent people you save me.

4 “I called to the LORD, who is worthy of praise,
and have been saved from my enemies.
5 The waves of death swirled about me;
the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me.
6 The cords of the grave coiled around me;
the snares of death confronted me.

7 “In my distress I called to the LORD; 
   I called out to my God. 
From his temple he heard my voice; 
   my cry came to his ears. 
8 The earth trembled and quaked,
the foundations of the heavens[c] shook;
they trembled because he was angry.
9 Smoke rose from his nostrils;
consuming fire came from his mouth,
burning coals blazed out of it.
10 He parted the heavens and came down;
dark clouds were under his feet.
11 He mounted the cherubim and flew;
he soared[d] on the wings of the wind.
12 He made darkness his canopy around him—
the dark[e] rain clouds of the sky.
13 Out of the brightness of his presence
bolts of lightning blazed forth.
14 The LORD thundered from heaven;
the voice of the Most High resounded.
15 He shot his arrows and scattered the enemy,
with great bolts of lightning he routed them.
16 The valleys of the sea were exposed
and the foundations of the earth laid bare
at the rebuke of the LORD,
at the blast of breath from his nostrils.

17 “He reached down from on high and took hold of me; 

he drew me out of deep waters. 

18 He rescued me from my powerful enemy,
from my foes, who were too strong for me.
19 They confronted me in the day of my disaster,
but the LORD was my support.
20 He brought me out into a spacious place;
he rescued me because he delighted in me.

21 “The LORD has dealt with me according to my righteousness; 
   according to the cleanness of my hands he has rewarded me. 
22 For I have kept the ways of the LORD; 
   I am not guilty of turning from my God.
23 All his laws are before me;
I have not turned away from his decrees.
24 I have been blameless before him
and have kept myself from sin.
25 The LORD has rewarded me according to my righteousness,
according to my cleanness[f] in his sight.

26 “To the faithful you show yourself faithful, 
   to the blameless you show yourself blameless, 
27 to the pure you show yourself pure, 
but to the devious you show yourself shrewd.
28 You save the humble,
but your eyes are on the haughty to bring them low.
29You, LORD, are my lamp; 
   the LORD turns my darkness into light. 
30 With your help I can advance against a troop[g]
   with my God I can scale a wall.

31 “As for God, his way is perfect: 
   The LORD’s word is flawless; 
   he shields all who take refuge in him. 
32 For who is God besides the LORD? 
   And who is the Rock except our God? 
33 It is God who arms me with strength[h] 
   and keeps my way secure. 
34 He makes my feet like the feet of a deer;
he causes me to stand on the heights.
35 He trains my hands for battle;
my arms can bend a bow of bronze.
36 You make your saving help my shield;
your help has made[i] me great.
37 You provide a broad path for my feet,
so that my ankles do not give way.

47 “The LORD lives! Praise be to my Rock! 
   Exalted be my God, the Rock, my Savior!

There are SOOOO many take home points from this passage, it is overwhelming to me.  What I liked best about the passage, is that David says he cried out to God who heard his cry… but it doesn’t say God immediately came to him and anything/everything was “perfect”. It says that as God came near, things got pretty ugly. The earth quaked.  The skies got “dark”. Darkness was his “canopy”. There were even lightning bolts. But through all of it, although those dark clouds “carried” God to David, God’s hand reached down and lifted David up.  Praise God for his faithfulness!!

Of course, here are some pictures to catch you up…


“Here I am! Rock me like a hurricane!”

Do you have ANY idea how many times I heard my husband sing this one line from that song on Saturday?? I stopped counting at some point. I’m surprised Em didn’t start saying it!  We did get rocked, quite a bit actually by some significant winds in the 50-60 mph range. We saw LOTS and LOTS of rain. I still don’t know the rainfall total but it pretty much rained non-stop from 4pm Friday until at least 10pm Saturday (I went to sleep after that and it had stopped by this morning).  We had a good 12 stuffy hours of no power. I grew up in the mountains. Not having power is common, especially during winter storms.  But the summer has something the winter doesn’t… heat!  The wind was so rough, if we opened a window, an entire room got wet, so we had to keep them closed. I walked out on our little porch several times just to feel like I wasn’t “smothering”.

Needless to say, as soon as the sun was up good this morning, I was begging Robbie to get me out of the house.  We took an adventure around downed trees to his parents where we had an unexpected but absolutely wonderful waffle and bacon breakfast! (That’s what you get when you wake up Grandma and Grandpa at 7:30 and let them know you have the grandchild with you in the driveway!)  Em has been really sweet for the most part the last couple of days. Today she got to playing a little rough/silly and had several bumps and bruises, but she’ll make it!

As I typed the title to this blog, I noticed the first line of that song was “Here I am!”  It makes me think of 2 things… Samuel (I think) in the old testament. When he was first getting the Lord’s call on his life. He heard God calling to his name and he said, “Here I am!”… The second thing is a song based on some verses in Isaiah, “Here I am, Lord send me. Here I am, Lord I’ll go.”  In looking at all the storm damage in person today, on the news and knowing there is a lot of damage in the Black Jack community, I really would have liked to have gone down there and helped personally.  That’s a challenge I’m feeling a lot lately. How do I serve God (physically) while still being faithful to my family?  I can’t exactly leave my 18 month old on top of Robbie all day to do physical labor. I shouldn’t go do that type of physical labor being pregnant and all.  I wouldn’t feel right asking Robbie to go do it all without me if he wasn’t called to do it.  It sometimes feels helpless to say, “All I can do is pray.” But at the same time, sometimes that’s the greatest thing we can do.  I guess I’ll figure it out as I go along.

Here are some videos of our booger today:


Happy Mother’s Day!!

It makes my heart sing every time I hear Emme say, “Mom-mom”.  It’s so sweet, even when it’s “MOM-MOM-MOM-MOM” when she wants out of the crib after her nap. This weekend has been almost  as surreal as the week we had her and brought her home. Just pleasant and wonderful, even when Robbie gave her sips of Pepsi and she was out and out crazy for hours!  Saturday, she wanted to be held a lot. She came to me in the recliner and I picked her up. I was secretly trying to get her to nap.  My hair was in a pony tail, but she put her hand on my neck like she wanted to twirl my hair. I obliged and let her play, when she took my hair and brushed the ends over my nose to tickle me!  She is so darn funny and smart because that is what I normally do to her! She giggled and giggled!!  She touched my face.   I cried (of course).  Oh, how I love this beautiful child who has made me a “Mama”.


Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord, oh my soul!

hey everyone!! hope you had a blessed and wonderful Easter with your family and friends. “Up from the grave He arose! with a mighty triumph o’er his foes; he arose a victor from the dark domain, and He lives forever with his saints to reign. He arose! He arose! Hallelujah! Christ Arose!” We have had a great day. Em was a bit fussy this morning, mostly because she was being persistent (in a not so good way where she wanted to pull the computer cord and mommy said “No” 3,000,000 times and had to ask for help from daddy!). Nonetheless, she was all gussied up in her beautiful new dress from Grandma Kim when we left for church.


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